Diet

I've been on a pretty extreme diet. It has been great, in the sense that I lost 9 pounds in the first week. What this tells me is that with willpower I can lose weight. However, eating only 500 calories a day isn't really my cup of tea. Day 6 dawned with pretty much of a "oh my gosh, what can I eat" attitude. Chicken wings here I come. So, feeling guilty about going off the diet, but knowing that I can go back on the diet - resulted in this - I will eat whatever I want today and go on the diet again tomorrow. I want to get down to my Weightwatcher weight, then go on a maintenance diet. The diet itself wasn't so bad, just bored with choices, and not sure that I can live without icecream. Doing OK with no champaign though!

Avatar

It took me years to find out what an avatar was, and then the movie came out. After it left the theaters I finally got around to watching it. Honestly, I don't know what the fuss is all about. Really, if you have ever done a lot of snorkelling or scuba, you have seen so many things that are in the movie. In fact, I had a lot of them in my aquarium. OK movie, good colors, but don't get the mystery.

I found out yesterday that one of the singing groups Sarah made it into only has 20 members. 10 stayed in from last year, leaving 10 open spots (see, I can do math). More than a hundred tried out. Her voice continues to improve. She enjoys singing, and I am proud of her.

Yes, I will continue to "spy" on her singing in the shower.

My daughter says that my Sponge Man and Me is creepy. Hmmm .... well, I can't figure out how to make my pictures smaller, so it will have to do. Perhaps if he was smaller it wouldn't be creepy. The picture was taken in Key West over Christmas. Sarah and I spent a week there, and had a wonderful time.

Sarah auditioned this past week for a play at school, and for two singing groups. She made it into all of them. She, and Liz, must get their singing voices from me! It is so funny, I can remember when Liz was a teen listening to her sing in the shower (which was the only time she would allow us to listen to her), and now I get to hear Sarah doing the same thing. They both have wonderful voices.

I am determined to find something that I am grateful for every day. Today I am grateful that Sarah will be home for the weekend, and that it is a beautiful day so that I can continue work in the dog yard. Will my projects ever be complete? Or will I always find just one more thing to do. Time to get to work.

What is this about?

The past week or so I have felt very much as though I am in the process of reinventing myself. All of the things that I defined myself by have changed. Some days it is a struggle to think about what I want to do, others it is a joy to merely finish a task I have set for myself (finish with the tile in the kitchen area).

Who am I. For about 20 years I was a "wife" and "mother." I am still a mother, but no longer a wife. And half of the children I was mothering are grown and no longer in my house. The blessing that came with that is that I am a grandmother, and I can't think of a greater joy.

I do have one child at home, but at 16 she no longer needs me in the same ways. She is a joy, and at times a frustration. I love having her.

But I do have to decide where I want to be and what I want to do. Maybe this will help. So begins my journey.